Being racist is natural

August 24, 2015

Whenever I hear about a leaked audio/email of a famous person being racist or sexist or whatever-ist, I become outraged.

How could they??!

Don’t they know it’s 2015 and things have changed??
Let’s kill all the racists and maintain a utopia.

Then I remember that I’m also every kind of bad thing.
Racist, sexist, homophobic, bigot, selfish, arrogant, stingy, inconsiderate, …

In general, I’m wired to think I’m the best and every other thing is below me. There’s a part of my brain that operates this way.

I’ve also said every word in the language too. Trust me.
N word. F word. C word. B word. And yes, even Z words.
What kinda life would it be to have words we are not allowed to say?? – thinks my mind.

Even if I don’t say it out loud, every single “bad word” floats around in my mind.

It’s a minefield in there. Full of static.
Like a raging sea.
The winds are strong. The waves crashing about.
And it will toss any boat over with ease.
Unless I manually calm the waves down with meditation and loving thoughts, it will be a rough day in there.

Buddhists talk about how we have seeds of love and hate inside of us.
It’s our daily job to water only the seeds we want to grow and starve the seeds we do not want.

The weeds will grow in our garden easily and effortlessly.
It takes effort to grow a rose bush.

Native Americans use the analogy of two wolves in our mind.
The good wolf. And the bad wolf.
Which one will we feed today?

From my own experience, I’ve noticed that anger, hatred, racism never go away.
It’s there.
Waiting to be fed.

And some days I become too self-absorbed and accidentally get caught up in the negative habits.
Then I have to reset. Take a nap. Wake up. Journal.
And do my practices to get back on track.

IT’S A DAILY JOB FOR ME TO TRY TO BE LOVING, KIND, COMPASSIONATE, GENEROUS.

It takes MF-word effort.

So I’ve learned to become more compassionate towards others who get caught up by the bad wolf.

I’ve been there and done that.