Collateral Damage (from getting angry)

June 19, 2015

The aim is to destroy someone with my words.
Like poisoned arrows of hurt aimed directly at their heart.
And I fight to win.
But there are unintended consequences.
Collateral damage.

It’s like antibiotics.
I want to nuke the bad bugs with powerful medicine.
It works.
Except it also kills off the good guys that work on my team.
And the bad bugs evolve to get stronger the next time around.

Whenever I fight with my family, I aim to demolish the grounds.
I drop nukes and decimate the area like hiroshima & nagasaki.
But all that anger destroys me too.

It ruins me for 4 to 5 days.
Depression. Sadness. Binge eating. Laying in bed. Lethargy. Joyless bitter days.
And that’s if I try really hard to stop the backsliding. If I do nothing, the collateral damage can last for weeks or months.

Getting angry always backfires.
There is no way around it.

“Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one getting burned.”
– Buddha