Our Inner Conflict: Being an Animal vs Spirit

February 5, 2014

“You are a little soul carrying around a corpse.”
– Epictetus

“We are not human beings having a spiritual experience.
We are spiritual beings having a human experience.”

– Pierre Teilhard de Chardin


The human animal wants physical pleasure:
– eat
– sleep
– move around
– mate with every female: spread our genes
– bang best friends wife
– horde food, money, things: ensuring survival
– lie, cheat, steal: ensuring survival
– fight when attacked
– flee when threatened
– etc. we’re basically like apes. though, even apes have a soul, important to remember.

What the spirit wants:
– peace
– love
– happiness
– fun
– fulfillment
– tranquility
– to learn, evolve, wisdom
– create art
– wants recognition, praise, leave a legacy
– transcendence
– enlightenment

My animal side wants to see every woman naked.

My spirit has to keep it trained to make eye contact. The animal wants to stare at feminine reproductive parts. Boobs, ass, legs, stomach, whatever.

The animal is constantly on the lookout for the perfect vehicle for my genes to pass thru.

The spirit knows we have societal rules. Ogling makes women feel uncomfortable. Even though women are also animals.

The highest compliment a woman can make to my animal side is to tell me I have a huge schlong. Or that I’m super good looking. Or that I’m a badass. Animal ego stroking.

The highest compliment a man can give a woman?
I’m not so proficient in this area but I assume praising her spirit.

No woman is impressed by me telling her she has huge boobs. Except paid prostitutes & paid cam girls. Common denominator: paying.

There are different souls having different life experiences.

Some souls come to experience fully what it feels like to be a savage animal.

Having sex with as many women as possible. By any means.

Killing others. Beating up the homeless for fun.
Stealing from the tip jar, fuck the employees.

Some souls come to fully experience the spirit life.

Meditating in the mountains, alone.
Eating vegan.

Doing as little harm as possible to all living beings. Living the single meditative life.

Dalai Lama
Thich Nhat Hanh
Pope Francis
Paramhansa Yogananda

Democrat or Republican? Libertarian? Tea Party?
Does it even matter?

Real question is spirit or animal?

This is something I struggle with.

Every time I have to take care of my animal needs, part of me struggles.

Any time I want, I can open up a browser and go to myfreecams.com.

At any time of the day, there’ll be at least 1000 women (mostly, super pretty) shaking their reproductive parts for free.

Part of me is upset that I didn’t become a pick up artist & lay every color of female in every country.

When I’m grocery shopping and another animal stands too close to me, I feel rage.

When an animal cuts me off in traffic, I play revenge fantasies in my mind. I want to pull an office space: take a baseball bat & channel Ted Williams, on their car. While their kids watch & cry.

Of course I don’t do any of that.

If you saw me in public, I assume you would see a meek polite dude.

Maybe shy. Maybe brash if I’m feeling brash that day.

Maybe even douchey if I’m being a douche. I’ve had plenty of arrogant douche days. Trust me.

Most likely, I wouldn’t catch your eye.

The animal in me worries that I’m too polite. Be more brash. Yell back. Take what’s mine. Fuck how others feel.

Part of me wishes I didn’t surf myfreecams to take care of my animal needs. It never makes me happy, but it’s like taking the car for an oil change. I don’t want to do that either.

I don’t have an answer to this animal vs spirit struggle.
It just exists.

Like Marcus Aurelius says, we will all be dead & forgotten one day. And that might be the best blessing.

“Death is very likely the single best invention of life.
It is life’s change agent.”

– Steve Jobs

“Blessed are the meek:
for they shall inherit the earth.”

– Matthew 5:5

“If you can, help others;
if you cannot do that, at least do not harm them.”

– Dalai Lama